Edited by: Sara Mohamed
At this moment of my life, I find myself in an internal conflict between what I want and what I should want. The lines between the right and wrong start to blur and I wonder if I’ll ever find a way out of this. Am I a bad person for wanting what I want? For listening to that little voice inside my heart whispering for me to follow my dreams?
All I do is to listen, for I dare not go against the expectations; what ultimately should be the better option. I am told, “give it time and that small voice will die out”. So I waited, mourning the passion that is yet to be lost.
For I live in a world where dreams are destroyed before they even blossom…
At times like this, I wonder if anyone suffers the way I do, am I alone with myself and my war? Who do I talk to? Who will understand? No matter how much they even try to understand, they cannot. Nobody can see what is inside of me. Their battles are different.
It is just shocking that in a world where everybody is connected, I feel completely alone.